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Not to bash my husband-to-be or anything. But are all husband-to-bes as uninvolved in the wedding planning process as mine? I’ve always known that men are naturally not as crazy as women when it comes to planning a wedding, but still, is it really that hard to demand a little proactive participation without probing, reminding, and/or getting upset? Sometimes all of my questions are simply returned with the tag that says “Selina, it’s still more than 6 months away”, as if it is not going to happen just because it is more than 6 months away. If you are having a baby in 6 months, I doubt that you won’t start thinking about getting baby things or strollers. Or if you are starting out in a new school next September somewhere out of state, wouldn’t you want to know the area and living situations more right now? Just saying.

Don’t get me wrong, I still love this guy and want to marry him with all of my heart. I just thought that this blog shouldn’t always be about the happy and glittery la-la-land but a little closer to the truth of reality, of how things really are, of how I really feel, good or bad. I caught myself wanting to selectively neglect writing about more negative things because I don’t want to give other people the impression that things are bad, but then I realized that then it loses something and thus becomes a little unrealistic. In the end, I am the one who will read these stuff 10 years down the road,

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Ri always says “I could care less about any of this stuff, I just want the girl” to pacify my agitated state of mind whenever our discussion became about wedding planning. I guess it is kind of true. At the end, I just want to be married to him, and be the closest person to him on this planet. Somehow having your eyes on the ultimate goal makes the rocky journey a little more bearable, it also makes the journey a little less significant than what the society portrays it to be. In reality, I don’t need all these wedding stuff, I want them, but I don’t need them. In reality, I not only want but also need him to be my husband. So the need vs want test produces such reality check for me, and it is good. :)

Secretly, I’m waiting for September 2nd to come, and by then I can say “no, it’s less than 6 months away now”. Hehehe.